3 weeks down... how many more?!

Well. It's Tuesday.

It's officially been 3 weeks since Carl pulled out of Pearl Harbor on deployment. Don't really know how I feel about this, other than the fact that it really sucks that my heart is pulled in a million different directions right now. I kinda want to go back home (which isn't an option 'til Carl's brother leaves for England since he's staying here) so I can be closer to friends and my immediate family. But. Carl's in Thailand right now (pulled in yesterday), Bethany's in Madrid (I'm so jealous! lol.) and Missy's in Colorado. It's like, I don't know what to do with myself, I feel so left behind and alone. I guess I shouldn't, but I do.

Plus, I ended up in the hospital again last week since my blood sugars haven't been as normal as they should be. I figured out, however, that my doctors when I was growing up didn't explain to me the correct way to keep my insulin in line. So, hopefully that's the only problem I've been having, and I can keep things under control now. I'm so tired of hospital visits. I've been there too many times, because the nurses have started recognizing me. Oh well. Not again. at least, that's the goal.
But it was definitely a first for some things this visit. 1. I was awake/conscious when they put the catheter in... 2. They put a central line in. which involved stitches and 3 iv's in my neck. Which resulted in having to wear a yellowed bandage on my neck for 72 hours. It was gross. But I finally took it off today! at 3. I counted down the seconds. 3. First time being alone and capable of my own health decisions without input from others.
And it's nice to be out.

I worked yesterday and today. I get tomorrow off, and then work Thursday-Sunday. Its nice to have stuff to do, but I still have all afternoon off, and never know what to do with myself!! I'm working on being a mentor for a high school kid with diabetes. I'm really excited about it, cause it would definitely look amazing on a resume, plus, I think I can use the support as much as she can. So, we'll see where that goes.

I think I'm gonna wrap this up, and go sit down and knit. Working on a scarf before Kyle goes to England! Hopefully I can get it done!!